Dancing under the Moonlight

If you frequently visit my writing, you must know that I really love the beach however it is. Living in archipelago means you have an extra bond with the sea and waves. That's what our country has.

So this time I had an opportunity to visit beaches in Java island, which I had never considered before, because the island is more focused on art and culture than the nature itself.
It were Parangtritis and Indrayanti beaches. What makes those special were because I visited at the middle of the night, exactly at 12 am or more. I can see clearly even there's no light on that beach. But when it comes to the dark photography, I'm sorry I'm not that capable.

As an human being, I do believe in magic. There's still local belief that says Java's beach is inhabited by the queen of the sea. Some restrictions still ringing in my brain when I visited, but let us don't be that paranoid, just be assured that there will be no bad things happened when we didn't do anything bad to damage the environment surrounds.

Forgive my insanity, I blame my uncontrolled endorphin hormones when I saw beaches. Here comes the girl who turn into a completely different person when she's dancing...

My ears listen on every waves roar...
My nose loves to smell the stinky of the sea,
even when my eyes can't see the blue in the darkness
My skin lazily join the breeze into the droplets of seashores,
even when no shadows hiding beneath on my feet

When the splinter of moonlight welcomes the night, right before the city waking up....
...let's dancing in the dark like no body's watching!

After Grad

It has been a semester since my graduation ceremony, but I haven't post about it yet.

Thank you for those text books and journals! My imagination grew from the library visits, and my writing skills today have been influenced from all those years with my nose stuck in a book.
Thank you my study gangs, for all discuss, argue, and craziness during those tiring preparation days. Congratulation Dentists, finally we made it!

That's what graduation is all about... Love and pain, but it's worth every bit!

Honestly since that day, I just feel free to do anything what I want. And maybe that's why I feel no longer enthusiastic about my next goal than I used to be. When I was a student, I know what I want exactly, I can see my goal clearly...to be graduate. That's it. But after it was accomplished, then what's next? Is that really what I want after all this time?

Since that day... all lecturers and senior doctors seem different when looking at us. They're no longer in the mood of killing, nor testing our capability anymore. They place themselves respectively as our colleagues, as friends to share knowledge, and as partners to discuss all medical case with.

I won't forget to remember all my teachers, mentors, and peoples next to me who care enough to teach me all the lessons I need to learn. I will remember it in my life all the trouble during my college and co assistant life. All glisters and blisters that happened. Sometimes they can be painful too, but I believe we are here to learn and grown on the inside and especially in the difficult times we grow the most.

I only believe that it all used to be easier, but when I really think back I realize it was more difficult to be graduate without knowing what's ahead. It was difficult living as a professional because everything was so new and I could take nothing for granted. I had so much future ahead of me that it was challenge enough to live in the moment. It wasn't always easy because there were plenty of situations where I needed to show all my courage.

I never imagine that finally I entered this industry. I wasn't a pundit. I wasn't a journal addict. I didn't want to be a part of medical industry at all. I wasn't doing it full-time until this year, because I was always putting sport and another interests first.
I think it's like a lifetime learning. Working in medical line means a full-time dedication to always be updated, because the science and technology can change so quickly.

Since that day... I walk my path without any burden to the place where I belong.
Since that day... I realize that I supposed to living on the next aspire in this life. No need to compare it with the past, but moving on.
Since that day... I could start to appreciate my current profession.

As for me in this moment, there is still that rebellious girl who comes late running in the corridor just before the lecturer passes the class door almost every day. There is still so much of that student athlete which are often granted some dispensations for not joining academic activities while they could enjoy the uni tournaments. The issue was that I wasn't that good at the eyes of manners and attitude. But I'm proud of the person I am today, because I went through one hell of a time becoming ME.

Right now, I don't feel like I have to just do one job. I have fun with different jobs, to engage with new professional challenges for quite some time now, and I really enjoy how it makes me feel as a person. I have dared to try new things out, and seeing where my path leads me...

Life Essentials

Last month, I was still on the fence about doing the thing I really wanted in life or not. Since I was a kid, I always admire someone with the artwork on their skin. Not the body paintings which I often use when in Bali or stickers from bubblegum surprises. No. Not that kinda temporary tattoo. I'm talking about the permanent one. Although sometimes the whisper of my parents and closest friends advice are made me into a very deep dilemma. But then I found a wise word said,

So I decided to stop the war, and make it happen. I came to the tattoo artist and decided to be that girl with the images on her body. Now it has been a month since I have it. Okay, finally I got my very first permanent tattoo! The craziest decision I've ever made. Maybe I did the mistake. But believe me, it feels like all the burdens are detached from the heart. Truly an evil inside of me!

After the tattoo has healed, the problem didn't stop there. It wasn't always easy for the first time. The taboo things about the do's and don't's of tattooing for Indonesian female like me. Even until I'm ready to go public right now, it takes time for my family and friends to accept it and made up their minds. Of course, getting a tattoo is a huge deal for me as a girl born in "so-Asian-minded" family. This is really a big decision that must be considered wisely. After all, it will be something that found room on my body for my entire life forever and ever and ever. Although nowadays the open-minded peoples were thinking that tattoo is part of fashion and lifestyle.

I realize the risk of I will end up bored or even dislike the design, or I choose the wrong position. Personally, I prefer tattoo with meaning. However, I need to show my tattoo effortlessly, not just can be seen when I wear a tank top or bikini, but a part in my body that can be easily seen. That's why I choose my life essentials as my tattoo designs on my right arm.

And those three symbols are where my life begins...

Dharma cakra, a Buddhism symbol as my top priority and lead me all the way.

Tennis racquet and ball, keeping me in balance between spiritual and physical health.

Tooth, reminds me of my current mission as a dentist, to fix the world in a better smile.

You know when you related to symbols, it isn't only show my characteristic but also as my life goals to keep my tattoo lively and vibrant. I thank universe to make it happened at the age of 25.
And for another goals and artwork on my barely skin, who knows how many more will follow?!